Love Shouldn't Hurt Like That.

It takes a lot to love a person.
It's inconvenient,
and painful.
No matter what.
BUT...
Turns out
it's usually worth it
because while that love gets in your way and sometimes hurts,
it still makes your day when
you know that they're thinking about you
and can't wait to see you later
and you can tell them all about your day...
However,
what happens when someone you love
starts hurting you too much?
When the person you adore
and thought adored you
no longer shares their day with you,
or calls just to say they love you,
or leaves a bruise...
It's really hard to admit it sometimes
when a relationship that used to be amazing
has lost its love.
When someone physically hurts you,
it's not love.
They didn't just"lose their cool".
They say they'll never ever do it again.
False.
You have the new bruise to prove it.
And even if it did only happen once,
statistics show that won't be the only time,
and why would you want to risk that?
Why risk your heart
and your body
and your spirit
to that kind of abuse?
You are so much better.
You're worth all the love in the world
and you should try to find it,
far away from a person who hurts you.
Because you won't find it there.
They don't love you.
And you don't need them.
Many will love you
and will never do anything
but try to make you smile.
That's where you want to be.
With that person.
It's not impossible to find them.
It only takes time.
Don't stay with an abuser.
Love yourself.
You're incredible.
You're strong.
You are in control of your own life.
Find support and love
and use your strength.
You're worth it
and everyone who loves you
thinks so too.
Always here for you.
Love,
Bee.

Love is a Dangerous Thing.

Just finished my biology final.
Now I literally never have to take a science again in my entire college life.
Assuming I didn't fail the class.
Pretty stoked about that:]
I didn't want to take this class,
but I figured it's better to just
get it done and
do what you gotta do.
No matter if it's fun or not,
because trust me,
a 10 week course compacted into 4 weeks is really not fun.
But that's just the way things are.
Sometimes you have to just close your eyes
and hold your breath,
and trust that you're gonna get through something.
Like breakups.
They really
really
really
hurt.
Seriously,
it's like your world just crashed down
when you break up with someone who you loved,
or thought you loved
or thought you'd be with forever,
or all three.
People dying from foreign diseases seem to have it easier than you
because you're dying of a broken heart.
Unless you're 80 years old and had been with your love all your life,
this probably isn't the case.
It's ok to feel like it is,
at least for a while.
You have to let yourself be upset,
for a while.
Everything must run it's course.
Just know that it will get better,
it always does,
even if it feels like your heart is smashed.
And if you feel that way,
I am sorry for you
because that really is the worst feeling.
Love is a dangerous thing,
because you can never be entirely stable with it.
There's always the risk of getting hurt.
But when you're not hurt,
isn't it the best thing in the world?
You will love again Line,
just let it heal.
And know that from every heart break,
you're closer to finding the one who won't hurt you.
Just keeping it in perspective.
Happy to help:]
Bee.