Confusion Answered.

Okay.
I know I've been completely infrequent with my posts,
and I apologize for that.
BUT
The reason for this is because
I've been out there learning and making mistakes,
in order to give you the feedback you like :]
I'm about to pour my heart out on this one,
so stay with me.
I'm no longer confused about how to act or react.
I have a solid answer.
Which is exactly what I wanted...
Now, was the substance of the answer I got
exactly what I wanted?
Well,
at first I didn't think it was.
At first,
I was kinda upset about it.
Upset that he didn't like me enough to become something more.
BUT
after thinking about it,
that what I always want.
I have never been the girl who wanted a boyfriend,
I've never wanted to be stuck with one person,
so why did I confuse myself this time?
Well,
to be honest
it's probably because I genuinely liked him.
But that's beyond the point.
I think the reason I was prepared to commit so quickly
was because all of my friends told me I was supposed to.
No really,
anyone that knows me,
knows I'm not the relationship girl.
I'm a flirt.
I like to have fun.
Commitment scares me.
I lost track of who I was for a few weeks.
There's the key words there:
"few weeks."
I had only known this guy for like 20 days.
That is an outrageous amount of time for me to:
meet boy.
fall for boy.
date boy.
want to COMMIT to boy.
20 days!
Wow. wow. wow.
That is just not like me at all.
And now I remember that.
Yeah,
it still hurts a little to know I won't see him again,
but most likely it's for the best.
Maybe in a few years
we'll both be the single ones in our groups of friends
and we'll meet again.
Maybe we'll be more grown up
and ready for relationships.
Maybe I'll never see him again...
But one thing is for sure,
I learned from it
and it was fun while it lasted,
because we were a pretty good match.
Keep your smile and your guard up line,
both will get you where you want to be.
Happy to help.
Bee <3

New Situations, New Reactions.

You know what really blows?
Being unsure.
It's definitely in my top 5 least favorite things...
oh yeah...
it's right up there with snakes and ignorant people.
And why is being unsure SOOO frustrating?
BECAUSE YOU CAN'T PREDICT ANYTHING.
Maybe it's just me.
Maybe I'm the only person who mentally shrinks everyone I meet,
and during that time of analyzing is where I determine
how to behave around said person.
Extrovert? Introvert. Arrogant? Humble.
It's all about give and take...
but it's REALLY hard to have that "give and take" situation flow smoothly when you don't know what the other person is thinking.
This is the first time in my life I've run into this problem.
I'm usually very good at reading people.
It's one of my best qualities...
or it WAS.
Recently I've met someone who is absolutely impossible to read.
No wait.
That's not true.
I can read them,
but I'm still entirely unsure of how to act around them because
What
if
I'm
WRONG?
Why now?
Why this sudden confusion?
Well I couldn't really tell you.
I think it has something to do with the fact that I may like them.
Him.
Well shoot.
This is inconvenient.
Soon as I find a solution to this "unsure issue"
I'll let you know.
So far, all I've got it this:
Don't over analyze the situation.
Stop trying to read them in order to react, and be yourself...
because if you're not yourself
they'll either like you for the wrong reasons,
or dislike you for the wrong reasons.
No matter what, nothing is ever permanent.
If you say something stupid to a person you're interested in,
or if you separate,
don't stress.
Be patient.
No action can't be changed in some way.
Don't over analyze. (Yes, I know)
Take every situation as it comes and don't worry about the next step.
Live now.
Not later.
If they don't like you it's their loss.
You're fantastic.
And only the person who recognizes that
deserves you.
Well Line,
good luck.
I need it too.
I'm in uncharted territory right now.
I kinda like it.
Stay tuned.
Happy to help,
Bee.