Confusion Answered.

Okay.
I know I've been completely infrequent with my posts,
and I apologize for that.
BUT
The reason for this is because
I've been out there learning and making mistakes,
in order to give you the feedback you like :]
I'm about to pour my heart out on this one,
so stay with me.
I'm no longer confused about how to act or react.
I have a solid answer.
Which is exactly what I wanted...
Now, was the substance of the answer I got
exactly what I wanted?
Well,
at first I didn't think it was.
At first,
I was kinda upset about it.
Upset that he didn't like me enough to become something more.
BUT
after thinking about it,
that what I always want.
I have never been the girl who wanted a boyfriend,
I've never wanted to be stuck with one person,
so why did I confuse myself this time?
Well,
to be honest
it's probably because I genuinely liked him.
But that's beyond the point.
I think the reason I was prepared to commit so quickly
was because all of my friends told me I was supposed to.
No really,
anyone that knows me,
knows I'm not the relationship girl.
I'm a flirt.
I like to have fun.
Commitment scares me.
I lost track of who I was for a few weeks.
There's the key words there:
"few weeks."
I had only known this guy for like 20 days.
That is an outrageous amount of time for me to:
meet boy.
fall for boy.
date boy.
want to COMMIT to boy.
20 days!
Wow. wow. wow.
That is just not like me at all.
And now I remember that.
Yeah,
it still hurts a little to know I won't see him again,
but most likely it's for the best.
Maybe in a few years
we'll both be the single ones in our groups of friends
and we'll meet again.
Maybe we'll be more grown up
and ready for relationships.
Maybe I'll never see him again...
But one thing is for sure,
I learned from it
and it was fun while it lasted,
because we were a pretty good match.
Keep your smile and your guard up line,
both will get you where you want to be.
Happy to help.
Bee <3

Two Candy Canes Make a Heart

Oh,
hey there holiday season.
I see you're back again...
Weird how that happens.
Also weird how the holidays are always much nicer
when you have someone you love to share them with.
Yeah,
that's nice.
But I dunno,
isn't having a significant other for the holidays a little overrated?
At LEAST a little cliche...
Right?
Totally...
Who needs a boyfriend/girlfriend when there's mistletoe?
God's own invention to promote kissing various people!
Right?
Yeah...
Being in a relationship during the holidays is ACTUALLY a total disadvantage...
1)You have to buy someone else a present,
which will cause you a lot more grief than just getting a hat for your dad
and jewelry for your mom.
2)You have to make time for someone else,
when you've already got your own schedule to take care of.
3)You're gonna have to hang out with their family,
most likely..
4)What happens when you get into a terrible fight,
two days before Christmas,
and it doesn't get resolved?
Who's Christmas is ruined then?
Yours.
DOWNER.
So maybe you'll have someone to hold hands with,
or to make a snowman,
or to go out,
or laugh with,
or kiss,
or hug.
Oh...
Those things might be nice...
Whoa...
What?
What's happening to me Line?
Is there some possibility in the universe that I'm ACTUALLY prepared to commit to someone?
WHAAATT??
Me??
You're faithfully single Bachelorette?
Nah...
I'm only prepared to commit if the right guy comes along...